Work in Progress

I have never really been happy with my appearance.  Over the holidays my daughter and I fell asleep on the couch.  My husband took a picture of us, and it should have been a sweet picture.  However, all I noticed was my size and I can't get that picture out of my head.  I am the heaviest I have ever been, besides when I was pregnant.

Before we got married, I was on Weight Watchers.  I lost over 20 pounds before my wedding, and while I wasn't skinny, I did feel a little less self conscious about being in a strapless gown in front of my friends and family.  Well this November, my little sister is getting married.  She had asked me to be her Matron of Honor, and I am thrilled.  However, I can't imagine standing in front of everyone again looking (and feeling) like this.  This time I don't have my wedding to worry about, now I'll just be the chubby chick fixing the beautiful bride's dress. 

I am not looking to be a size 4 here, I have never been skinny.  I don't even know if it's possible for me to be skinny.  I am just looking to work on myself and feel more comfortable in my own skin. 

Wait, what?

That's what I expected my husband to say when I told him.

I want to run a marathon.

Not just a marathon, one of those crazy Disney marathon weekends.

I have been on weight watchers for almost 4 months now, down 10 pounds with only about a million to go and I have done a lot of talking about what I should do for exercise. Going to the gym is my worst nightmare. The smell of it makes me want to vomit. So I have been trying things at home, looking forward to warmer weather to use the walking trail near my house. And then I found my motivation. And then I found a 26 week marathon training plan.

http://www.marathonrookie.com/marathon-training-programs.html

I have had, let's call it, a curiosity about marathons.  Working at a place that has so many people interested in fitness, I know a couple people who run marathons.  I watched documentaries about people who run 26.2 miles and they always end with people in pain, but the feeling is always the same. They have a feeling that they can do anything in the world.

So Monday starts my training. Here we go.